We all have that a goal or two that we want to achieve but for one reason or another we never really attempt them. We might think they are too big or we don’t have time for them or we might be worried that we would fail than we are excited to try and obtain it. I have a few goals like that. For the past few days I have been debating on whether it was time to try and work on one of them.
Ever since I took a creative writing class in high school I’ve wanted to write a book. One of my high school English teachers encouraged me to attend a writing camp at Duke University. She even helped find a partial scholarship for it. At the camp and in school my stories were generally well received. I started entertaining the idea that maybe I should try writing more. I started several stories in high school but I never finished them. I still have two of them because they meant the most to me but they are pretty battered from all the moving around I’ve done and no where close to being finished stories.
I have thought often since high school about taking up writing again and actually writing a book. As much as I want to, I usually end up talking myself out of it. I think of all the things I have to do that take up most of my time (work, school, family, social obligations, etc). I also manage to convince myself that people really didn’t like my stories. That they were just being polite. I didn’t see the point in trying.
While going through boxes this weekend with Jeremy I located one of the stories I had started in high school. It got me thinking again about writing a book. I don’t have the same obligations as I use to. I have a little bit more free time to devote to writing. So I can’t use that as an excuse. Also since I have been blogging now for a while and seeing the response from y’all, I can’t say that people were just being polite in their critique of my writing. Y’all have inspired me to keep blogging for a year now. Every reason I keep coming up with for trying to talk myself out of trying to write a book I can no longer back up with. So I guess its time for me to stop making excuses and actually try it. Worse that can happen is that I fail but at least then I can say that I tried.
I have my chromebook ready to go with blank page waiting for me to start. I have my Apple Music (Dido radio station) playing on my Ipad. One day I will have a legit laptop where I can actually download iTunes and listen to music that way. I have my favorite bowl of dried lavender to relax me while I write. Cup of hot tea is nearby (mango green tea). This is actually how I typically I blog. Normally I am at my desk but lately I have been blogging at our kitchen table because I like the afternoon light better in here. The sun goes down directly in front of my office window and while the sight of it going behind the mountains is gorgeous, it is also painfully blinding.
Okay. Enough excuses and procrastinating by blogging. Time to actually start this. I have two and half years before we leave Japan. Maybe I can leave here as a published author.