Today has been busy, busy, busy, dead. All day I felt like I was running out of time. I didn't sleep in for once. I actually slept well for the first time in a really long time. I decided to sleep with an eye mask for the first time ever. It was one we got on our Delta flight when we flew out her in June, 2015. The sun rises super early here in Japan. Like 5 am early. Ugh. Because of the way the blinds in my bedroom lay, the sun is in my face by 5:30am. Way too early for me. The eye mask worked wonders. I wasn't woken up by the sun for the first time since I moved to Japan. Since I slept so well I didn't hit the snooze button a dozen times.
For the first time in a long time I am actually busy everyday. I am happy I am getting out the house and socializing more. I have a bad habit of becoming a hermit when Jeremy goes away. I'm really working hard to change that.
Today has been a long day. Ever have one of those mornings where you simply can't get out of bed? No matter how much you sleep its just not enough? That was today for me. I went to bed pretty late because I had company last night. Some Marines had come over because they had some questions about paranormal stuff. We tried to get Al to talk to use but nothing really happened. They left about midnight and I went to bed about an hour later. I ended up sleeping until noon which I really hate to do because it makes the day feel wasted.
Last week when I wrote the post "Bye Bye Fat Girl" it was a way for me to tell myself I was serious about the weight loss this time. I wasn't expecting the response I got from all of you. So many comments, emails, Facebook messages, and more and all were positives messages. Thank you everyone for all the encouragement and advice. You have no idea how much I appreciate it. The support I feel this time makes me actually believe that I can achieve my goals.
Today was my first day at the Rib House. I actually enjoyed it. It felt great to be actually working again. Yeah I am basically making minimum wage but its something. Plus I am actually feeling productive again. It has been over 18 months since I worked a legitimate job. Yes I know teaching is a job but it is only an hour a week. It feels different to actually go to work and punch a time clock. I feel like an adult again. This base has had me feeling like a child for a while.
I have always been plus size. Before I blamed it on my schedule (no time to cook healthy or work out). I blamed it on it being too expensive to buy healthy stuff all the time. Then I blamed it on Hashimoto's. Yes I have put on weight because of the Hashimoto's but I need to be honest with myself and admit that I am a bigger part of the problem than the disease.